a very sad day

I feel sad and I do not know how to get rid of this sadness. too much grief that comes, first I feel a person can not express her opinion, the second I felt very sad when I see people who I love very close to someone who might be special in the eyes
God give me strength to face all this. I do not want no more tears falling down my cheeks, but nothing as strong as I hold all of this still in the end I'll cry.